It has been a very long~ time. Sometimes, I even forget that I am a Korean. Maybe, I tried too hard to forget the heartbreaking memories of my childhood. Anyway relax, I am a South Korean. I am a wife of a wonderful loving proud American/Christian man who time to time has to fly on the military jet make sure the mission is carried on without the crash. Ok, he is an "avionic." This time his destination is to Hawaii, well, without me of course, and he says they make time in Hawaii. Whatever that means. I get a call from him saying that he is still in California...because...the jet is BROKEN! I am trying to think sensibly, "Isn't that why he is there because it is his job!" Breath in and breath out... Do you know what a wife do when she has no job, no kid, and no pet, no husband? Sure, there are plenty things to do but when walking back into one room apartment door by yourself, what do you think? Some good gospel music, P90X, internet, and TV, call some friends and family talking to every single one of them, sing to myself every songs I know, and pray out loud, cook, make some noise... The church is my second home, I try to stay and fellowship until last person is gone home especially when I know that no one's going to be waiting for me at our little humble APT.
The waiting is all worth when I get a sweet call from my missing husband, "Hi, Babe~." I guess, It is good to be apart sometimes. I feel like we are back to be a boyfriend and girlfriend couple again, a little heart beats, shyness, and saying "good bye" at list twice.
My life is continuation of unexpected events that God has brought to the world. I give up my plan to God so He can write the tasks for me on His holy tablet. When I'm done with one task, He checks it off and get me onto the next one. I thought I was gonna be an independent single with cool job for a while although I had faith that the Lord had put a man on my task organizer.
I have a dream, not something that appears when you go to sleep, but i have a dream that maybe the Lord will allow to happen. Before I got married, I really just wanted to meet an ordinary man so I can be an ordinary wife like everybody else, nothing more and nothing less. That is why I am starting to write the blog, it seems that is what stay home wives and moms usually do and I have been wanting to share with everybody how the Lord blessed my life. If I make use of every minute of time, maybe I'll reach toward that dream.
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