There is a New

        I have experienced loosing my many wonderful happy memories because of just a few heartbreaking moments. I could not get away from it and still hurts whenever I think of it.  Accepting the past was not easy.  I used to think why those things had to come into my life.  Yes, it did not go away nor erased.  I wanted comfort but I could not find it anywhere.

       There were results and influences from the past.  It could be many things as anger, bitterness, or pain.  How could I win over my bitterness and pain?    Nevertheless, there is no need for me to talk about my past but only future lies in front of me. Talking about the past, it only hurts!

       Old things pass away and there is a new.  When I became a child of God, I came to learn about Christ.  I could not possibly bring up my status while Christ’s work was supposed to be shining.  In humble adoration, the Lord had took away my past and gave me a new life.

       There is a real truth how I make fellowship with Christ.  I read His words and pray.  Yes, it sounds simple but it was not easy at the time.  I wanted comfort, help, and rest. I was selfish.  What the Lord really wanted of me was fellowship.  He did not want my dedication and service. It was not what I could do for Him.  He wanted me to get to know Him.  I thought I knew Him. I thought I comprehended my Savior enough to know His love and His will.  I am afraid I was wrong.  I still do not know His perfect will.  I can not see!  Well, The Lord showed me that I do not have to know. I do not have to think about it. I only know that He promised and He will hold my hand.

       “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy path.” (Proverbs 3:5-6, KJV)

       The Lord promised that he will guide our path if we yield to him.  Sometimes, there seems no future or hope.  For us, there always will be a wall blocking in front of us until God opens the door. There is future far ahead of us. We just don’t see it.  Of course, we desire and plan our future.  The Lord says yes or no.  I do not know where the Lord takes me and what He wants me to do but this I know that He is taking me to His best path where I need to be.

       Time to time, I am blinded by my trials and temptations. I get paranoid because I do not know what I am going to do.  Giving me a new chance each time, the Lord always shows me on time for His will.  His wills are things that I never thought of before and still wonder.  Just as Christ took away our sins and putting it behind us, He gives us a new.  My past is only left with His honor and glory of His deliverance.